I'm 34, single and trying to get thru life with doing mostly freelance gigs. I never thought I would end up like this at 34 but I guess that's the problem when you don't plan for things.
I'm more or less living day to day. Sure I have an ultimate goal for life but so what? I feel like I"m just floating down a river. I'm moving along like I'm paddling down the river but in reality it isn't doing much.
What do I want to do? I'm not quite sure. I flip flop a lot. I want to move to London, Tokyo or even Hong Kong but New York feels comfortable. I want to be a full time photographer but this desk job feels comfortable.
I know...I'm not doing as much as I want or should. I should be on top of a mountain and screaming my name out. I keep waiting for things to happen but instead I should be making things happen.
Why is turning old so annoying?
In March I will turn 35, I hope by then something in my life will be different than right now.
I don't care what you think of my taste in music or what you think of Bon Jovi but "These Days" is probably the one song I have on repeat the most times.
Keep on reaching for those stars people.
"I was walking around, just a face in the crowd
Trying to keep myself out of the rain
Saw a vagabond king wear a styrofoam crown
Wondered if I might end up the same
There's a man out on the corner
Singing old songs about change
Everybody got their cross to bare, these days
She came looking for some shelter with a suitcase full of dreams
To a motel room on the boulevard
I guess she's trying to be James Dean
She's seen all the disciples and all the "wanna be's"
No one wants to be themselves these days
Still there's nothing to hold on to but these days
These days - the stars seem out of reach
These days - there ain't a ladder on the streets
These days are fast, nothing lasts in this graceless age
There ain't nobody left but us these days
Jimmy shoes busted both his legs, trying to learn to fly
From a second story window, he just jumped and closed his eyes
His momma said he was crazy - he said, "Momma, I've got to try.
Don't you know that all my heroes died?
And I guess I'd rather die than fade away."
These days - the stars seem out of reach
But these days - there ain't a ladder on the streets
These days are fast, nothing lasts in this graceless age
Even innocence has caught the midnight train
And there ain't nobody left but us these days
I know Rome's still burning
Though the times have changed
This world keeps turning round and round and round and round
These days
These days - the stars seem out of reach
But these days - there ain't a ladder on the streets
These days are fast, love don't last in this graceless age
Even innocence has caught the midnight train
And there ain't nobody left but us these days
These days - the stars seem out of reach
These days - there ain't a ladder on the streets
These days are fast, nothing lasts
There ain't no time to waste
There ain't nobody left to take the blame
There ain't nobody left but us these days" - Bon Jovi
It's been rainy since Friday night and while it stopped raining for a moment on Saturday, the clouds stuck by and covered the top of the Empire State Building. It almost looked like a giant robot was hiding in the clouds.
A giant glowing LED buckyball sits in front of the Flatiron building.
24th Street looking towards Madison Square Park.
